Maybe it's just December

I feel busy and incomplete at the same time. Like everyone has these separate, REAL lives outside of law school. I don't.
I guess I felt like coming to school in Portland would fill this part of my life that I thought needed filling. I've had this continual problem of boredom since I was about 19. I'm not sure that it was that way in San Francisco. In fact, I'd been okay up until last February.

I sometimes think I took the "easy" way out by coming here for school, because it was a shitty time to look for a new job and I just was completely disgusted with the idea of having to go through interviews. School seemed promising, and like a great opportunity to meet new people and expand my mind and views. Thus far though, I don't feel like I've been LIVING.

Not sure if that makes any sense. It might be because it's finals and everything is ridiculously routine right now. Eat, sleep, study, work out, study. Soon it will be winter break and everyone will be going back to their lives before law school. Their respective friends, significant others, families. It's not like I don't have any friends or family- it's just that I feel almost pigeon-holed into this life that I'm not sure I'm completely happy with.

I had received this golf ball analogy e-mail that was kind of sappy but sweet, and true. It's easy to get caught up here with school, and things that need to be done. In some respects I've built a life for myself here, but it's hard to say that I'm completely content because I feel so isolated from things that are real and close to me. Mainly, my friends and family and the ocean. I just miss road tripping and living and breathing and having fun. Not to say that school is completely unfun. It's interesting and has this odd way of bringing people together. However I still feel completely divergent from people that were prominent in my life before this and I don't like it.

I guess that's it.