At dusk I took a walk through Scotts Valley in a mediocre attempt to get into shape. Getting back up hill was another story.
I passed a lot of white picket fences and huge houses with manicured lawns and wondered if I'd ever end up owning a house that beautiful, with a beautiful family.
Light from the setting sun fell through their glass panes and spilled onto their clean, warm, kitchens.
Every family seemed frighteningly perfect.
I really want that kind of life. You know- the one where I'll go to work and be able to pick up the kids after practice and cook a dinner where we sit at the dinner table and talk about the events in our day.
You probably think that's weird.
Really, I crave normalcy in an unconventional time.
However, I began to think about what it would be like to live in a beautiful house with a nice fence and pool, sans the family.
Would the void for a family be filled by a nice car, living room, and great art?
I highly doubt it, so I'm just considering the things that are important to me in life right now. If I could have it all I would, but we'll just have to see. I feel like I can't have fun and make money at the same time. So this job searching this is pretty challenging.
Anyways, it's a scary/exciting time right now, but much less so than I expected, I guess because I'm just hanging out. Nobody needs to motivate me more than me I guess.
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